People equate doorways with opportunities. New jobs and achievements can “open doors.” Or you can “close a door” on a part of your life you’ve outgrown.
I have been entering and exiting the same doors for a while now—physically and metaphorically. I have a very steady routine, going to the same places and doing the same activities. I like these places and activities. They’re comfortable.
It’s wrong to say I’m been stagnant. This year I started my herb business, which has taken up a massive amount of time and energy. However, because I’ve committed myself to taking care of my garden and focusing on herbalism, I’ve neglected other parts of myself that I wish to explore too.
I still want to keep challenging myself, keep growing, and also take advantage of my young adulthood when I can make big choices without much disruption. However, I (rightly) balance this desire with a need for stability as well as an understanding that novelty itself won’t bring satisfaction. We have to do inner work to be fulfilled. Our external circumstances can help, but won’t do it alone.
While I’m mostly content, there will be some changes coming soon. New doors I need to open for personal growth. For now, I enjoy my routine. In crossing the thresholds of familiar doors, I can express gratitude as well as remember that one day I’ll be called out of these doors. Still, I’ll need to make sure I’m called not for novelty, but to better serve myself and community.
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